Britney. 19 years old. Maryland. November 14th. In love with Wesley. The color pink. Horror movies. Addicted to music & Rockstar. 
As if messing up my car wasn't enough, my mom always finds a way to put me in a real shitty mood. I came home from my dad's house because she was supposed to dye my hair. I'm planning to dye it blonde, but well, that never happened. She wasn't home when I got here, but I got a call from her. She said she sold the TV in the living room (as if I couldn't tell) and that tomorrow she is taking my TV and putting it in the living room. I was just so furious. After getting off the phone with her I just started screaming bloody murder and cussing like a sailor. I was so close to destroying stuff, but I managed to calm myself down enough not to. She keeps saying she never gave me the TV in my bedroom, but a few years ago she bought a new one for the living room and put the old one in my bedroom. I don't know about you, but I consider that to be giving it to me. I know I didn't pay for the TV, but I think what my mom is doing is wrong. She is the one that sold the living room TV so she could downsize to a smaller one. So why not take that money and go buy one then? Instead, she's taking mine like the selfish fucking bitch she is. You all can give me hell for talking about my mom like this, but honestly, she's not much of a mom. She may have provided for me for years, but there is a lot more to parenting than that, and that is where she fails.
When she was pregnant with me, she smoked cigarettes, smoked marijuana, and got drunk every night. When I was around three years old, she went to jail for about a year. My Grandma and Great Grandma took care of me. I'm sorry, but if you care about your child enough, you don't do stupid shit that might land you in prison. (Not sure exactly what she did). She has always gone in my room and thrown away things of mine without my permission. What fucking right does she have? I don't care if it's her house or not, those are MY things. I also have vivid images in my head of her dragging me on the ground by my hair, throwing things at me, kicking me while I lay on the floor crying, and whipping me with a belt. Far beyond a smack on the butt. A good mother should help build up your self esteem and always be there to talk to when you need support. My mother has done nothing but tear me down by calling me immature and saying I don't know how to do anything. Maybe I'd know how to do a little more if she would have taught me. Any time I go to her to talk, she either simply ignores me, or raises her tone at me for some reason. I specifically remember when I was bullied in middle school. All I wanted was her love and support through that hard time. What I got was "You need to deal with it." However, regardless of all that, I still have a love for her and I feel like I need her. I just feel very confused.
Since she's planning to move soon, I don't think I'm going to go with her. She brings out the worst in me, and I can't take it anymore. Wesley is going to bring some boxes over this weekend so I can begin to pack some of my things. I have decided to move to my dad's. It's just really hard because there will be a lot of things I have to give up. I have to leave Chloe (my cat) behind, my bed that I love so much, my work only being five minutes away (it will be 30 minutes away at my dad's), and Photoshop. I think Photoshop will be the hardest to give up. If you're wondering why I'll probably have to give it up, it's because it will not work on the Vista installed computer at my dad's. I've tried already. I can take this computer with me, but there's absolutely nowhere to hook it up. I'll try to snag a newer version of Photoshop, if possible. That might work. There isn't really any room at my dad's for my stuff, but I'm determined to find a place. I can't live with my mom any longer. Especially since I pay her rent and she still pulls the "it's my house" deal. I feel like she's only keeping me around for the money I pay her. This whole situation is just difficult, but I can't wait to see her face when she finds out I'm serious about moving out.
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Good luck with moving to your dad's. IMO you shouldn't have to pitch in as much as you do, especially if she is taking your stuff as well.
That sucks 
I'm sorry you had to deal with all of that. I don't think your mom should've taken the television like that, even though she'd gave it to you–it's yours. She has no right. And it doesn't sound like she was ever there for you at all. It's hard to deal with a negligant parent, I know
Why won't it work on Vista? Mine is a Vista and it works fine with Adobe Elements 5.0 I hope you can get it fixed, and good luck at your dad's. Sounds like you will be happier there, anyway.
Aww *hugs*
If she has been mistreating you all this time, I understand why everything she does nowadays makes you sick. I'd feel the same way. Good luck, I wish you all the best!
I'm so sorry for what you have to deal with. You're absolutely right: there's more to being a parent than providing shelter, food and other basic necessities. She needs to nurture you, raise you, instill values, and be there for you emotionally, no matter what is going on.
Moving out is definitely hard. It was hard when I did it, because like you I had to leave things behind: one of my cats, my bed, some furniture, and of course, my brothers, who at the time were only five and seven. But I adapted, and here I am, six years later, never once regretting the choice to move out when I did.
In regards to Photoshop… um… email me? I run Vista, and I am using a full version of Photoshop. 
I'm very sorry to hear about your situation. Maybe it's best that you do move out and maybe things will get better. Adobe Photoshop CS3 is compatible with Windows Vista. Contact me for more information!
Aww that's sad to hear about your relationship with your mom and what you went through because of her. The best you can do is learn from it and be a better mother to your child than she was to you. In the end, she'll always be your mother so maybe you guys will get closer in the future. =)
Ironically enough, I can relate to your situation a lot. When I lived with my mom, her parenting skills weren't exactly the best, either. She let my sister get away with everything, and I mean EVERYTHINg. So in turn, I felt like I had to be the mother to her. However, despite how much trouble my sister got into, she never changed. Not only that, but my mother let my LITTLE sister beat on me like crazy. Finally I decided to move to my dads, and my mom was so shocked she cried a river longer than the Amazon. I didn't care, I still moved. And I'm glad I did until this day.
*HUG* Sorry your relationship with your mom is like that. She shouldn't expect you to behave like an adult if she refuses to treat you like one. Do you really _want_ to be there when she finds out you're moving out? If I were you, I'd be tempted to move out while she wasn't around and leave a note just to avoid the chaos. Based on her willingness to toss your stuff, if you tell her you're moving out then a few days pass with her at home alone, who knows what could be gone when you go to actually move out. Don't take stuff like the TV even if you believe you deserve it.
If my parents took back something like a TV in tough times, I'd understand. What strikes me about your mom is that she doesn't seem to communicate with you or respect you.. and that is worth being upset about.
Remember to register your change of address so things get sent to your dad's:
https://secure.marylandmva.com/eMVAServices/VRR/COA_info.asp?sku=cngAd dr
If you choose to (and you may not want to), you can find out what put your mom in prison, it's all public record:
http://casesearch.courts.state.md.us/inquiry/inquiry-index.jsp
I'm assuming you have an older version of Photoshop? I know some legit ways to get it installed on Vista, if you want to email me.
Sorry about all the stuff with your mom, that's rough I hope your move goes well.
Awww it's a lot to give up your belongings but to give up your cat… =( I'm lucky my mom doesn't do that to me but the way you describe your mom sounds like the behavior of the rest of my immediate family. I need a lock for my room to keep their asses out of it.
i can't really say that I know exactly how you feel but I'm really sorry about that and I do hope moving with your dad makes things a bit easier for you. =]
Sorry about Chloe! I don't know what I'd do. I get wayyy too attached to pets and animals. Lol.
It sounds like you had to go through a lot of hard stuff, and I sincerely hope it gets better after your mom moves. 
Wow, the situation with your mom sounds… not good (to be polite).
I think the distance from her will be good for you.
I'm so sorry to hear about your mom! I never knew that you underwent such horrible circumstances. But even so, she's still your mom and just like you said, you still love her and need her.
Sorry to hear that But hey, at least you'll be more content in your dad's?
Although it does suck you have to leave Chloe behind - I could never leave a pet behind because they get to be like a member of the family, you know?
But at least there's still some love there - don't completely give up on your mum, she may want to change or something one day. Who knows?
I really do hope things improve when you go to your dad's!
Oh, and about your comment on perms, I had tried wave irons, curling tongs and even tried curling my hair with my ghds, but nothing worked, so I got the perm. Sometimes it's just the hairdresser you go to that can either make your hair look amazing or a mess! I guess I got lucky! 
I know this comment is a little late, but I'm sorry about all the crap she's putting you through, that's definitely not fair, and nor is it a good way to encourage good relationships with one's daughter! :O :/